Hey! So i've been taking a lot of crap from people about not writing an entry, in like forever! and ironically enough these are the people that never EVER write! (literally, not 1 entry). So not a lot has happened b/c I've been working on a stupid computer program from my research (like 12 hrs a day since my last final 10 days ago). Get this: about a month ago my advisor told me what my thesis should be and I assumed I had I dunno, the next year to work on it. Apparently not. He told me 2 weeks ago that he needed it b4 i leave for christmas. My whole thesis! It was crazy. He's really nice, but man i didn't see that coming. So that was the entry for every day for the past 10 days (minus minnie dying...that was really sad).

Last night we (my family) had fondue (sp??) and chelsea came over and it was way fun! Then Harpreet and Mich came and we played taboo for a long time, and that was fun too! the 20's kicked my parents butt (and lindsey)...ok not really, but it was fun. Then we played Tribond which could be a really fun game if updated, but it's like 15 years old and almost impossible. Long story short: my dad kicks our butt every time we play it, and there's no time limit, so with as many competetive people as were in the room, it took forever! But there were many memorable phrases used in the night...my favorite was Harpreet's...he was trying to make a joke and it totally didn't come out right. he said he was an "Ex-lax impersonator"....ok that was me not him...just kidding. it was him. no really it was me.  mmmm don't know who to believe do you!?? ok harpreet...was this long enough for you???

bottom line: i hate matlab (computer programming sucks!) and my high school friends are still way cool (maybe cooler than when we were in high school...mmm food for thought).

So yesterday everything is good and going fine (except for the fact that I can't get my stupid research program to work for anything)....and I call my mom to see how my cute new puppy Minnie is doing....yeah and she died! My poor puppy apparently ate a poisonous palm tree and it went to her liver then her brain and so they gave her vicadin and then she died .... like 12 hrs after she ate the stupid tree. :( It's so not fair because she's just a baby and we've had her less than a month. I already miss her and she made our house so alive and christmas is going to be sad because everyone bought her presents and mine are just arriving    :'(     So sad. So I think i'm coming home the 22nd...I think.

The random thing is apparently my response to tragedy (after crying for an hour) is pampering and shopping. (Could I be a bigger girl!?) Every store I had even the slightest interest in that I drove by, I went in. Luckily it's christmas so my splurging is for my family mostly. Also, I got a manicure. It felt so nice! Plus my the nail polish dried so hard with that UV thing...anyway I'm going for a massage today cuz my back is just killing me. Poor puppy. ( I don't think my bank account can take any more tragedy...I'll be dipping into savings soon!) . bye.

So I hate finals....I didn't think they had those in grad school....I just saw 'Birth' with nicole kidman - dumb movie, don't see it....it's not scary....bennigan's was yucky too, the drinks were expensive and food not that great....funny i didn't think i was in an unhappy mood, but apparently i am.

i love apathy...that's my mood....clearly. (see i'm not in a bad mood....i LOVE apathy and procrastination and staying in bed alllll weekend and sleep. i especially love sleep.....any my bunny. she's cute. she got into a fight with my big plastic candle lighter today. it was funny. she was throwing it around and everything....she felt so accomplished when she 'won'....yes. i love my bunny. and apathy)

So I just figured out this whole reviews part of xanga...cool!

I love thanksgiving! Here's my whole family and friends dressed up, as is our new tradition! We didn't celebrate thanksgiving until Friday because we were waiting for the Farmers from san angelo to get here...it so didn't have any difference though - my family doesn't watch the parades or games, so really we could celebrate thanksgiving on all saints day and it wouldn't make a big diff.

Last night was a total christmas night though: Noel with susan sarandon, paul walker (mmm), penelope cruz, and robin williams. http://www.tnt.tv/Title/Display/0,5918,534839,00.html totally cute...very sweet....and there was a christmas carol with kelsey grammer and jennifer love hewitt and the guy from law and order...it was good too...yeah christmas is here!

bottom line: 26 days till christmas!

http://uk.download.yahoo.com/ne/fu/oa/eurcncs185030.mpg

Dude...just go there. it's the funniest thing I've seen in a while (and it's been a very sad few days...so it must be really funny).

You will find, when you die, that that part of yourself
which you gave to others does not die with you.
                                              -- Lee Lowery

So oh my gosh! I went horseback riding yesterday at my friend's parent's house, and this time I rode the wilder horse. (Last time I was on the slower, older horse who's like really tired and it's a lot of work to canter)...anyway it was sooo much fun! He reared up only a few inches, but we were riding in the dark (it was only like 5pm...sad). Fun!

Then today I rode her again and while we were riding she was antagonizing her baby (now a full grown huge male) so my friends were like 'she has to be punished or she'll keep doing it'...yeah so i kicked her like they said and then it turned out she had ants on her feet, she wasn't trying to bug the baby....within 5 minutes she decided i had to pay for kicking her so she reared up quite a few time and threw her head forward and it was crazy! I loved it, and i stayed on no problem....then she did it again but more ferociously, so my friend's sister took her to punish her, cuz i wasn't going to kick her again...

anyway this left the old horse, but he didn't have a saddle at the time, so i rode bareback! I hung onto his hair and today he really wanted to canter (gallop)! so i was on a horse bareback and he was going like totally fast! It was awesome!

Happy Ending: I went horseriding today and yesterday and a horse tried reallly hard to throw me off, but i stayed on, and i rode another horse bareback...i feel like such a texan!

Isn't Minnie Mo so cute!?? This is long, but kinda funny....read!

Ok Preface to the entry: I consider myself a nonconfrontational person (when i'm upset or anygry with someone, I don't normally tell them.). - if this is contrary to what is true, like the time I said I thought I was a quiet person, please let me know! With this said you can read on.

So I was thinking about the only quote unquote (haha i wrote that out.) fight I've ever really been in (no there was no hair pulling or wet tshirts or pillows involved). I was sitting in the library (one of 4 times my college career) and I heard one of my new freshmen friends (cute fish my roommate and i adopted and took to the mall and dinner and stuff) who (sidenote) was also on the dance team.

Anyway, I heard her talking shit about my sorority loudly in the library one day (which while that's not cool, I decided people are entitled to their opinions.) Then she started saying crap about me, and while that's also not cool, I have enough restraint to turn the other cheek. THEN she started talking shit on my 2 best friends (one was my roommate and the other was captain of the dance team she was on). That was definately not cool.

Sidenote: To set the scene, she was talking loudly enough to a room full of people that on the other side of the library, I clearly heard her (she didn't see me or know i was there, and i thought we were friends).

So I walk up to her, told her what a f*$&-hole I thought she was and why. Oh and that she better make some friends quickly because after tonight she lost quite a few. The whole thing (her talking shit to my confrontation) was only 5 min, but it was literally the most exhilerating time of my life. I felt so good standing up for my friends, but it makes me question 2 things:

1. Why was it that I had no problem putting her in her place for saying things about my friends, but I would never approach her about her saying crap about me?

Answer: it should be b/c christian values tell me to 'turn the other cheek' but then I shouldn't have ever told her off because God would judge her for what she said and I shouldn't, so the answer isn't Christian based....hmmm

2. Why did it feel (and still does to this day) so good?

Response: Don't worry, I don't intend to go off on people forever, I mean, this happened 2 years ago and I haven't done a single confrontational thing since, but I do feel guilty not so much for saying what I did, but for how it made me feel (your thoughts are appreciated to answer either question).

Bottom Line: Misery love comradery (JD on 'Scrubs')...no that's not it. If you're feeling down, yelling at people who say shit on your friends drastically improves your mood! :)